Tuesday, February 28, 2023

A piece of A4 paper

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A piece of A4 paper
 
 
 

 

 

I have this paper to plan my day and make notes during lessons, but I mainly use it to doodle and distract myself during those lessons or other online meetings

 

The paper is sold in packs of about 100 sheets.

 

 I'd prefer it if it were a slight off-white colour, but that's a hard to get hold of round here. Besides, when I have found such paper it is usually more expensive: I don't like more expensive materials as I'm wary of wasting them, and consequently am less likely to experiment freely.

 

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Sunday, February 26, 2023

Spider

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Spider

 

 

Take a moment to consider the life of this tiny spider.

 

 

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Saturday, February 25, 2023

Parque Estadual do Rio Vermelho

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Parque Estadual do Rio Vermelho
 wood in Summer, watercolour, A3

 

 

I'm making the format narrower and narrower with each picture over the next few sessions. 

Perhaps that will lead to something interesting.



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Friday, February 24, 2023

Parque Estadual do Rio Vermelho: charred tree

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Parque Estadual do Rio Vermelho: charred tree
 watercolour on paper, A3

 

 

 
Parque Estadual do Rio Vermelho: charred tree - detail

 

 

In the next two weeks I'll explore thin formats - rather Chinese.

 

 

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Thursday, February 23, 2023

Vilcabamba: a hill above a river

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Vilcabamba: a hill above a river, watercolour, A3
 
 
 
 
 
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Wednesday, February 22, 2023

My Colombia and Ecuador trip: one more painting from Cuenca

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Cuenca

 

This painting still had to be published:


 

 
Cuenca, river view, watercolour on paper, A3

 

 

 

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Tuesday, February 21, 2023

In Italy

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In Italy


Perhaps this book was one of several found in Catherine Dawes' house in Suffolk after they had just bought it. There were a few left behind in a box by the previous owner. 

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The book is lovely, belonging to the days just before mass travel, before tourist crowds appeared, to exhaust places, sucking the mystery from them. There’s sweetness in the hand tinted images: mellow olive groves and still sunlit hillsides, silent squares, then fading stucco churches.

The Italy I know isn’t like this at all. It's more complex and, I'd say, much unhappier. Elegance cannot compensate for political mistrust. 

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The last time I was in Italy I went to Rome: recently divorced: alone. 

September: I strolled along the river and through the parks. The smell of the leaves sweetened a damp breeze. Rome is sad in September, but it is sad in a kind way.

I met an American woman like a stick insect who was staying in the same hotel. She knew everything about everything. The proprietor, a very short, pudgy young Coloradan was eager to chat. Funnily, she knew someone from the same tiny, extremely Jewish, Colorado town as he’d grown up, miserably, in. Drinks were surely in order, he declared. 

He took us to a nearby pizzeria. Though married and at least a foot shorter than the American woman he began flirting rather forcefully with her. He tried to exclude me by only responding conversationally to the thin woman and dismissing my contributions. He knew everything about everything and told her that the Sistene was not worth visiting.  We became a little drunk.

Oh the appalling sexual desperation of the male! 


The diminutive hotel proprietor wanted to make further advances with the woman. 

To do this he invited us to his den in the basement of the hotel, where he’d sometimes sleep. Photos of his beaming wife and children in their ideal Orvieto home lined the wall in the corridor outside. The den had a big sofa. We sat on it. Then the proprietor offered us both foot massages. Obviously, this was an attempt to seduce the Californian. Probably, I was expected to refuse. But we both accepted: he knelt before us and massaged first my feet then hers. 

Then we left. 

That was weird, said the Californian woman in the street above. I’ve never had a foot massage since, nor met anyone from Colorado.


The woman wanted to eat a fine Italian meal and the proprietor had recommended somewhere enthusiastically. 

We went the next night. It was a small place: a little group, in the weighty elegance of Romans, was waiting outside waiting for it to open. We felt under-dressed though my companion had managed to find a simple frock and looked quite nice in an understated way. 

When the restaurant opened, the group was welcomed warmly by an Important Manager who wore a shiny jacket and silk tie and costly loafers. 

We, however, were given a tiny table in the back where we were to crouch as an unsmiling waiter quickly served us an enormous single ravioli each: these resembled soft sea shells. The ravioli had egg yolk inside: we could not figure out why. Our conversation waned uneasily. We were given wine.  It didn’t help.  

Soon after, they brought us the bill. It was not low. The Important Manager asked us how the meal was in an efficient way. We paid, painfully. Then we were encouraged to leave. 

We stood for some moments, puzzled, in the wet night. We didn't really know each other.

We walked back up through the city and the wind blew more forcefully across Rome's monstrous baroque buildings. I asked the American woman if she liked Ezra Pound but she hadn't heard of him. She said that this was the difference between having a British or American education.

 The next day we met the hotel proprietor. He asked us how the meal was and we both said it was fine.

The American woman then went to Venice to join some Italian man she had never met before but who maintained he was in love with her. She didn’t find this unlikely.


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Friday, February 10, 2023

Vilcabamba, the river from a bridge

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Vilcabamba, the river from a bridge
 watercolour on paper, A3






Vilcabamba, the river from a bridge - detail






Vilcabamba, the river from a bridge - detail





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Wednesday, February 8, 2023

Vilcabamba, rocks above

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Vilcabamba, rocks above, watercolour on paper, A3





Vilcabamba, rocks above - detail





Vilcabamba, rocks above - detail




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Tuesday, February 7, 2023

My bed, being naked and alone

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My bed, being naked and alone



I know I wrote about my bed before.


 And I know there is some risk in writing about it again, of committing the writer's cardinal sin: repetition.


But, you know, I'll go on. I won't read what I wrote before, I'll plough on, because it gives me such release, such catharsis, to tell you how it is.


 I delay going to bed, I don't want to lie there. I know why. It's because it's unmanly to seek refuge in sleep; men stay on their feet and fight until their very tendons collapse. 


Then, when the day has truly ended when it doesn't seem embarrassing to go to bed, I go. I undress. 


It`s strange how when you undress you become naked but now because you have spent so much of your life clothed your nakedness seems alien and stranger than when you are wearing clothes. So I don't spend long looking at myself naked for this reason- I find the sight disconcerting, perhaps even shameful, though I wouldn't  be committing a crime in front of the mirror. I wonder if Californians ever feel the same, but I somehow doubt it. I am sure it is feeling located in the strange alleyways of my Scottish background, and the aftermath of Calvinism.


 I make sure the room is perfectly black. I have double curtains and I pull them tight together so no chink of light can enter. Then I get inside that blue blanket which is quite unbelievably soft, a new born baby could not be more kindly swaddled.


There you can see the leafy pillow: this is where my head goes, a watch beside it. I can`t live without time. The thought of waking and not knowing what time it is is as horrific as it would be for me to be dropped into some distant Chinese city, all hateful concrete blocks and street signs incomprehensible -a sense of panic would overcome me.


Then I close my eyes, then it comes in an silent wave or like a light being switched off- so rapid that you feel nothing at all, a slight of hand. Or...or it does not come and I lie like an idiot, cheated. Come here, come! Oh come here, sleep! Oh come!


I cheated myself by presuming that I might deserve to enter the dusk woods. It feels like nothing so much as being stood up. Affronted.

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Sleep is like music, if it is good or bad, I mean of course, music that catches you completely- you are physically moved by it, your heart beats differently, your moods rise and fall, it plays with aspirations and doubts. Some say that music can make you a better person but I find that sentimental, far too optimistic.

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I think we all know that life is hell, really, but most think it rather bad manners to state that too openly. It's like that experience when you go for a meal in a restaurant and the food and service are lousy, but only small children are given license to say, this really isn't great is it! as the others look awkwardly to the floor. But sometimes you are so pissed off that you have to say something.

 

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Monday, February 6, 2023

Vilcabamba, rocks above a river

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Vilcabamba, rocks above a river
 watercolour on paper, A3





Vilcabamba, rocks above a river- detail





Vilcabamba, rocks above a river- detail





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Sunday, February 5, 2023

Vilcabamba, river

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Vilcabamba, river, watercolour on paper, A3





Vilcabamba, river - detail






Vilcabamba, river - detail





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Saturday, February 4, 2023

Vilcabamba, a forest path



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Vilcabamba, a forest path
 watercolour on paper, A3







Vilcabamba, a forest path- detail







Just over a week more here.




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Friday, February 3, 2023

Vilcabamba, big hill

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Vilcabamba, big hill, watercolour on paper, A3




Vilcabamba, big hill - detail









Vilcabamba, big hill - detail






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